my life

Posted by zumer7 on 11/28/2010 at 3:01 PM

My life is kind of rediculus:
My family fights all of the time, all of the people I trust seem to be good at betraying me, so I have no one to talk to. I hide behind my true feelings, because if I don't control them I am happy and angry with everyone all at the same time, which is a really confusing feeling. I am not looking forward to school, because the motherboard went south in my laptop again, and the people that are supposed to look at it are considerably slow. I feel like I'm losing my mind, and I have a hard time sleeping at home, and I hate being here. I like to get out, because it takes some of the pressure off. I know I will have to be strong, but I don't think that it's going to work this time, I have no idea what else to do. I am also going through some crazy emotional freakout, I am worried that I will snap at the wrong person and go too far. I just want a break, but I can't have one at the moment, so does anyone have any suggestions?

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I know how you feel. I have no friends my own age either and I'm depressed.

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I have friends, but only about one and a half of them can understand what I'm dealing with. I say one and a half, because one of two people has only experienced mild issues like this. I just wish I could fall asleep and not wake up for a few months that way I could get away for a while.
Maybe i'm just complaining, but this allways seems to happen to me at the wrong time.

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Sometimes I wish I could just die.

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Hello!

It is Joe, again...

Our teenage years are probably the toughest to deal with. You have many stresses, emotions, and not to mention chemical changes in your body and your friends. It is a lot to deal with, but there are supports out there and people to talk to who can offer advice, resources, or just an ear to listen. There many support groups for teens and resources about dealing with a tough life. Schools even have resources for these types of issues. You may not want to share at school, so online resources might be helpful. We have posted some prior, but I can post some again.

We all have dealt with struggles, maybe not the same ones, but life can be really tough. I don't know the stresses you are dealing and know one can say they had the exact same issues. All we can say is we are hear and their are resources out there. It just takes courage to utilize them. I had to reach out to those resources many years ago and I know how hard that was. I have wrote on here about some of them.

Death is never a good option, you would miss out on so much. People should not throw that word or thought around. Death is final... Things can become so unsteady or riddled with issues that we can not see through the fog, but the fog will clear and the sun will come out. We all want to be around for that sun light, shining on us! I know you are saying temporarily, it is natural to feel that way with the amount of stresses you seem to be dealing with.

Let us know if we can help!

Sincerely,
Joe S.
AFB Staff

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I'm seeing a psychiatrist right now.

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Sarah,

I know that was helpful for me during a very difficult time in my life. It is a lot more common then most people realize, whatever can help us! I was skeptical and hesitant at first, but it truly made a difference. It is being able to express yourself and your feeling without judgement and such. These persons are also trained professionals.

Thank you for sharing!

Hope your week is going well!

Sincerely,
Joe S.
AFB Staff

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Thanks.

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I have wanted to die in the past, but I realize that isn't an option. Like I said, I have to be strong, but its like every time this happens, I am strong. I don't want to do it anymore, I want another outlet, but I don't know of one currently. I am deteriorating faster every day, and the only way to pull through is to pretend to be happy even when I'm not. Sometimes this actually makes it easier but its not working as well this time. Thanks Joe, I realize I am in no special condition, but I still feel alone for the most part.

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I am so sorry if I made it seem like your situation is not special, it really is because everyone experiences different obstacles barriers with some similarities. But, you are special and your situation is special.

Are there any community centers in your area? What are your interests? Are there any charities or causes that interest you? Do you have any hobbies?

There are a lot of support groups out there, for many different things. Hearing other persons struggles can help and also bring some additional resources. Giving of yourself can also help, it allows you to put others first. This can be a good and a bad thing, it is just a distraction. But, finding a professional to talk to is where you will really deal with, explore, and learn about the issues that you are truly dealing with. Having someone to listen can be tremendous.

I found writing during this time, the type of writing has changed over time, but writing has stayed consistent. I started by writing poetry, some might do a journal. Poetry allowed me to express myself in a creative manner. I sought out places for review and even was published later on. I took courses to keep growing and this outlet became something more. I read a lot of poetry. Later, through courses I found other types of writing such as play writing and then more formal writing.

What interests you? Is it something that you can get involved in online or through correspondence? Are there charity groups that you want to help? Often, they will allow you to do work from your home while volunteering for some large charities.

I can tell that you are strong, no doubt! Keep your head up and keep plugging away!

Sincerely,
Joe S.
AFB Staff

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Thanks.